Sarita

Out of all the stories and children of Peru, there is one girl that I especially will never forget and who needs much prayer. Her name is Sarita. We visited a girls home and I cannot tell you how totally heartbroken I was. These girls were saved from prostitution, abusive homes, off the streets, and other similar circumstances. The average age of the girls is 14-16 and many of them have children. I talked to this one girl who was 14 years old and had an 18 month old little boy....She was pregnant at 12, I just can't imagine.
But there was one girl, Sarita, that I talked with for almost two hours, oh I cried for 45 minutes after my conversation with her....I still almost cry just thinking about her.
She was with some of the directors and was just crying and crying and they asked Hannah Loo and I if we'd talk with her. So, we sat on the ground with her and started trying to calm her down. To start off with we shared struggles and different things that happened in our lives to make sure she knew we were not perfect and we did not have the perfect life as they imagine all Americans have. She was pretty shocked.... But anyways after that she opened up and started talking about herself and what she had and was going through. Oh and it was so terribly heartbreaking. Her mom had left her and she had been in prostitution, her dad was put in prison, then they brought her to this girls home and she said she felt like she was in prison here, just on and on and on. And she was just shaking and crying and squeezing my hand so tightly and just saying over and over I'm so afraid, I have so much fear and I never will forgive all those people who hurt me. Then she was like I want to kill my self, and I just cut myself and she lifted up her sleeve and her pretty little arm was just cut to pieces from what she had done just before she started talking to us....and then she was like I'm afraid to stand up I can't stand up! She said that there was a huge dark hole in front of her and if she stood up she was going to fall into it. She told us later that they had her on anti depressant drugs which is probably the cause of her hallucinating. We of course shared Christ with her, we shared A LOT with her but she is very stubborn, she knows everything but is so deeply hurt that she can't see past her hurt. By time the end of our very long conversation she had calmed down and wasn't freaking out anymore but still, there was no resolution to the whole thing. I was just hugging her and I had nothing on me to give her accept my purity ring that I have had for like 4 years, so I gave that to her and told her that this ring reminded me of my heavenly Father who died for me, and who loved and reminded me that I belong to Him and that I wanted her to have it and to remember her heavenly Father when she looked at it...she just hugged me very tightly and thanked me. I cried so hard after we got in the bus, I just am so heartbroken. Please pray for Sarita, her beautiful face will forever be engraved in my mind, I just pray that she will come to the Lord before she trys to kill herself.
Pray a hedge of protection around her as well, she needs the Lord's protection so very much.

Hannah and I saying goodbye to Sarita and exchanging email addresses.